I just wrote this out trying to get some thoughts straight. An email conversation with a dear friend today inspired this train of thought. For me, everything comes down to if I believe. Casting off this fear that one of these times, God is going to give me what I deserve. Leave me. Desert me. I need to get it through my thick head that its nothing I can do, nothing I have done, nothing I will do, rewards me with His faithfulness. He is faithful, because He is. He is the definition of Faithfulness. He speaks promise after promise after promise to me, and still I lack Faith. This is me on my road to belief.
It isnt a matter of God closing a door.
Or opening a window, or another door.
Its a matter of me having the Faith it takes to BELIEVE that once a door is shut,
another one will open.
That I wont be stuck.
In the space between two doors.
That He always has,
and always will..
Have a door for me.
Mar 9:23 Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth.