So, long 2008. It’s been real.

Too real. Chrissy told me I needed to blog something, I guess that video is old by now. She is right. I have fallen off the blog-wagon. I guess I feel like I should only blog when I have something encouraging to share. Or some useless information or funny. 🙂 Fact is, life has been crazy lately. My head feels like its been in a fog, and I am suffering from post traumatic stress syndrome or something. Im half kidding there. Especially with Christmas gone now, I just feel like taking a nap. You cant nap during Christmas. There is too much to do and then add on top of that, being one of the 2 main memory makers for Christmas memories is enough to make you want to breathe into a bag. But we did it. We’re here on the eve of 2008 coming to a close.

I was thinking about the Lord being near to us tonight as I drove home tonight from yet another grocery, pharmacy run. When we want to get someone’s attention, as humans, we sometimes yell, or wave, or text them. 🙂 But the Lord does none of these things. I was thinking about if I was going to get Ernie’s attention and I was sitting right next to him, would I yell at him? Would I scream in a loud voice and say, ‘HEY!’ Well, maybe if I was Kate from Jon and Kate + 8, I would. lol But I just thought how sometimes we need to be quiet, to hear His voice. Maybe we need to listen for a whisper because He is so near. Right near us, waiting on us, whispering to us.(I heard this thought on a message recently too about him being so near to us.)

That thought is so beautiful to me. He wants intimacy with us, quiet time with just us. God’s love language is probably quality time, and I have been leaving His love tank empty. In 2009 I want to spend more quality time with my savior. I want to be still, hear Him whisper my name, let Him handle my worries, quiet my mind and life long enough to be able to listen. This is my new years resolution. Along with the same old, lose 50 lbs, exercise every day, eat better, keep a cleaner house. You know, the usual. But this one means more. More than ever before I need to hear His voice. As I get older, life makes less sense. But the further I go in Him, I dont need to make sense of this life.

I saw this quote on a mug I got a friend for her birthday. I should have gotten me one instead. 🙂 Its my mantra for 2009.

‘Peace. It does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble, or hard work.It means to be in the midst of these things and still be calm in your heart. {unknown}

Happy New Year to all my friends. I could not have made it without you. You have been the extension of Christ’s hands and feet to me and my family so many times this year. Reaching out to us in love, comforting us, exhorting, giving, encouraging. I couldnt even count how many times my heart was touched by you, by everyone who reads this. I love you guys.

…and, lo, I am with you alway, even unto the end of the world. Amen. -Matthew 28:20