Well. Life has moved on since the youth meeting and I wanted my blog to show it. I hate when a post stays for a while, you check for something new only to be greeted by last years message. I dont think my blog will get that behind somehow.. 🙂 And from the looks of the title, apparently I am thinking a lot like Yoda these days.
Im not really knowing how much to put into my blog about cancer. I dont know if it is uncomfortable or upsetting to some people to read, if its shallow for me to be writing things on here about it, or if its shallow to be writing about other things when something so huge is in our lives now. No one I have ever known has been touched by cancer. Especially no one I have ever loved as much as I love Jan. She has meant so much to me. Made such an impression on my life. I could never do it justice to type it out on a computer.
She had some complications last night that brought her back to the ER and back into surgery. She is in the hospital again and while I was on the phone, she was saying something in the background about being bald headed from now on. So the doctor did talk to her. She got pathology reports back and all the lymph nodes they took had cancer in them. (8+ nodes) So, we are all pretty resolved to the fact that she will face Chemo. I dont know what this means for our family, but we will face it together.
Brad after school on Monday drew this on his board. I didnt get it at first but he told me, ‘Mom, the whole family is so happy!’ Then I got it. R, E, B, S with happy faces next to them. Our names! Instead of thinking he is a genius right off the bat like I rightfully should have, I admired his organizational skills. (lol and the scribbles are Reesie’s) Happy. Our whole family is. No matter what we face, we are together. And that alone brings me happiness.