Definition: To drive or urge forward or on; to press on; to incite to action or motion in any way. driven: urged or forced to action through moral pressure
My new favorite word. Its like compelled. But even stronger.
I heard this word said by Jackie Pullinger on a documentary last night. We watched her story called, The Law of Love. I have seen a LOT of documentaries on mission work and probably read even more-this was the most incredible I have ever seen. I was completely captivated by this woman. Her faith seemed not-quite-human and the place she went to was somewhere I didnt even know existed. Some places you see and think, I could do that. I could make that good. This place-no way. The walled city in Hong Kong. It is worse than your mind can even think. Heroin is the drug of choice. I cant even explain how this woman went in there and God was with her. It was sort of like Cross and the Switchblade but much, much more hardcore.
There was one part of the story where she said, “You cant just come in here and say, Jesus loves you. These people will look at you and say, ‘So, what does that mean to me?’ They dont know who Jesus is, and they have never been loved. I had to be Jesus to them.”
This sentence has haunted me a bit. I can tell people ‘Jesus loves you’ but am I being Jesus to them?
Yesterday morning I was overwhelmed by the song some of the youth sang, ‘Its my desire..’ (you can watch it on the church media page.) When it got to the part about being His hands and feet, each time I just wept. Am I being Jesus’ hands and feet? Because there ARE pure hearted people right now on this Earth that are interested in being Jesus’ hands and feet. He will use those that have a heart like that. Am I being Jesus’ hands and feet, to my own family? To my own community? Is it even my desire to do this?
So, if you have netflix check it out for free, or you can buy it at the link above. It will change you. Through a ministry of prayer, God can change people. He can give peace that passes understanding. You cant buy that kind of peace. He can come with his Holy Spirit and transform. Dont you want to believe? With all your soul that He can do these things we read about? I do. I have heard we use only a few percentage of our brains. I think I have been only using a few percentage of my holy ghost. I want to use it more. (even more than my brain, actually.) I want to be a functioning part of the church Jesus built. My heart is so full, but so grieved because I see where I fail and feel I could never measure up.
Most of all, I am so thankful that He sees me. And loves me. Right here in my human condition.