Because it was a sick day yesterday I put the boys to bed at 7:30 (only able to do this by with-holding their naps.) Ernie and I then had a good 4 hours together, weird, I dont think that has ever happened before. We actually watched a movie, that didnt sound out vowels to us. We watched the Count of Monte Cristo. Neither of us had seen it before,what a story.
By the time I laid my head down on the pillow, my mind would not turn off with a thought about determination.
The man escapes from prison. There is so much he has to overcome to get out of the prison, but each obstacle to get out was nothing compared to staying. He had a determination. A real determination.
I started to think on, replay my life in my mind from a little child as I went to sleep. I saw my faults, my struggles, my hurts, my deepest wounds replayed in my minds eye. Then I thought about my life after the Lord filled me with His spirit, and then a few years later when He radically awakened Ernie and I, wiping the sleep from our eyes. My life has been just like being in a prison for all those years. Now that I am out, I dont want to lose that determination. Over time you can forget. I want to remember the dark, cold, prison cell I was in all alone. Then He brought me out where I could feel the sunshine on my skin. When this man escaped and woke up on the beach it was probably the best morning of his life. I know that feeling. As I watched the movie, I lived it with him. Something would happen and I thought, This will not beat him. That will not beat him.
All we have been through in our own prisons then to only be held captive by anything this life could throw at us? Nothing can keep us down, if we remember the hell He lifted us out of. Nothing. He has saved us. From ourselves. From the pit of death. Nothing I could face now is worth going back into prison for.
I remember Bro Adrian testifying one time saying, ‘I have been radical for this world, and it didnt get me anywhere. So if you see me being radical here, thats why.’ I think of that from time to time, when you are delivered, something in that can make you a radical.
Be radical for the one that turns nights into days. Darkness into light, death into life, bondage into freedom. This verse below says IF. If He has set you free, you’re free! If He hasn’t, He can. Let Him.
John 8:36 So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.
Free here meaning:
From G1658; to liberate, that is, (figuratively) to exempt (from moral, ceremonial or mortal liability): – deliver, make free.