I just saw this morning Jonathans comment on my ‘Fair Sunshine’ blog. Apathy vs Complacency. Now there are some thoughts to start going through your head first thing in the morning! I remember feeling apathetic when I was 14 I think and Kurt Cobain killed himself. I was apathetic when my step-mom and dad got divorced. I am no stranger to this feeling. I normally feel things. Deeply. So when apathy sets in, for me. Its weird for me not to feel anything. I have felt this a little lately.
My brother and I used to go visit in the summertime Grandma Pauline and Grandpa Abe- (my step-brothers real dads mom-no blood relation to me but she always loved me and still does to this day.) I felt so safe there. She had a pool, always had snacks, and really talked with us, loved being with us, you could tell. Grandpa Abe would take us every morning to his donut shop in downtown Hemet and we would sit for a long time and just hang out. They had this bedroom with clowns all over it. It really scared me and I made Jason take this room. I got the room with the big white bed in it. This bed is attached to my fondest, safest memories in all my childhood and I don’t think I have ever told anyone that! I loved going to bed at night there, I felt so safe, so loved, so warm and like life was just perfect there.
Wonder if Grandma Pauline still has this bed. Lately I have been wanting to go visit there and just crash in it. I want to be 9 again and her just take care of me. Sometimes it feels like life is too suffocating and the way we deal with it is Apathy. Sometimes life hurts and Apathy is our defense. Ha-Ha! Got you! I will just turn everything off and feel nothing! But this is no response. Not when we have what we do in the Lord.
My husband has opened and laying in front of my computer a book. (hint? lol) and it talks about living a life of thanksgiving, but giving a life of thanksliving! What a concept! Job says, “Though He slays me!” I dont really think we choose apathy so much as apathy chooses us. Apathy is one of the powers and principalities we are up fighing against.
Today, I take a stand against it.
Romans 8:38+39 says “For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to seperate us from the love of God in Jesus Christ, our Lord.”
I add to this nor apathy nor complacency.